Songs

I love poetry but, am always afraid that people will judge me. I cannot fear people when writing is a way that I can worship the Lord. Here are some songs that I wrote with the help of Sarah Dromm. My prayer is that God would continue to break me of fearing what people think. I do not have to stand before people one day and be judged, I will stand before him.

Song 1

Verse 1

I was nervous and scared to fail or be alone,

yet I only confided in myself.

I was doing all I needed to come out on top,

yet I left you...I left you out.

Chorus

I used my crocked speech

to what I wanted and your plan still happened.

I held on to my pride

and fixated on myself but you waited patiently.

Verse 2

I was trapped in a battle of unbelief,

yet you never regretted choosing me.

I lived passively and found contentment

in my life. All the while you knew my heart.

Chorus

I used my crocked speech

to what I wanted and your plan still happened.

I held on to my pride

and fixated on myself but you waited patiently.

Song 2

Verse 1

I'm afraid to look back

on who I used to be.

Ashamed of where I've been

I hide my face.

I'm not who I was back then.

The people I've loved,

I never fully did.

The achievements I've made

were for selfish desires.

Chorus

Help me let it go.

Help me run to you.

Wipe those tears from my eyes.

Be my comfort now.

Your faithfulness is true.

Verse 2

I'm afraid to move forward

'cause all of my past.

Fear of the unknown,

I begin to settle.

I'm not as strong as you say.

You tell me to trust

but, I don't know how.

The price that you paid

was love in itself.

Chorus

Help me follow you.

Help me run to you.

Wipe those tears from my eyes.

Be my comfort now.

Your faithfulness is true.

Bridge (x3)

Help me to trust

good things come in your timing.

Chorus

Help me follow you.

Help me run to you.

Wipe those tears from my eyes.

Be my comfort now.

Your faithfulness is true.

Songs

I love poetry but, am always afraid that people will judge me. I cannot fear people when writing is a way that I can worship the Lord. Here are some songs that I wrote with the help of Sarah Dromm. My prayer is that God would continue to break me of fearing what people think. I do not have to stand before people one day and be judged, I will stand before him.

Song 1

Verse 1

I was nervous and scared to fail or be alone,

yet I only confided in myself.

I was doing all I needed to come out on top,

yet I left you...I left you out.

Chorus

I used my crocked speech

to what I wanted and your plan still happened.

I held on to my pride

and fixated on myself but you waited patiently.

Verse 2

I was trapped in a battle of unbelief,

yet you never regretted choosing me.

I lived passively and found contentment

in my life. All the while you knew my heart.

Chorus

I used my crocked speech

to what I wanted and your plan still happened.

I held on to my pride

and fixated on myself but you waited patiently.

Song 2

Verse 1

I'm afraid to look back

on who I used to be.

Ashamed of where I've been

I hide my face.

I'm not who I was back then.

The people I've loved,

I never fully did.

The achievements I've made

were for selfish desires.

Chorus

Help me let it go.

Help me run to you.

Wipe those tears from my eyes.

Be my comfort now.

Your faithfulness is true.

Verse 2

I'm afraid to move forward

'cause all of my past.

Fear of the unknown,

I begin to settle.

I'm not as strong as you say.

You tell me to trust

but, I don't know how.

The price that you paid

was love in itself.

Chorus

Help me follow you.

Help me run to you.

Wipe those tears from my eyes.

Be my comfort now.

Your faithfulness is true.

Bridge (x3)

Help me to trust

good things come in your timing.

Chorus

Help me follow you.

Help me run to you.

Wipe those tears from my eyes.

Be my comfort now.

Your faithfulness is true.

Taking time to reflect on what is really important to me didn't take long because the answer is...myself. I am important to me! As bad and selfish as that sounds, it is true. I think that the world revolves around me and that everything is better when I am fully satisfied. For a split moment I felt that satisfaction. The Lord asked me, Nicole are you ready to hand over your wallet? That is a weird question I know, let me explain. I went to a New Year's conference at DC...go team 2!! haha At that conference there was a speaker that used an analogy about idols. The wallet was a representation of the idols we haven't surrendered. All of my idols are there because I think that they will give me what God so patiently withholds (even though His timing is perfect). The thing that really blows my mind is why I continue to place things before the one that has never let me down. Why am I that psycho? This year I pray that God will grant me the grace to overcome my selfishness and bless me with a true desire to seek Him above all things. I do not want to live by a check list, marking off what I have or have not done. I want to live by seeking God's heart! I want to share the joy that He gives. One song that has really been breaking me down is the Come thou fount. The part that says prone to wonder, Lord I feel it, prone to leave the one I love. That is so true. We are all sinners and I am thankful that He doesn't give up on us.